As we approach the one week mark since our third miscarriage, I think I’m beginning to turn a corner mentally. Physically, I have felt 100% since late Wednesday. I was shocked how quick I recovered this time. I was in pretty decent pain all day Tuesday, although I slept away most of that day. By Wednesday I was able to go back to work.
Mentally was a different story. I think because of the surprise of the emergency D&C I had a delay in processing everything that had happened. It made for a tough few days during the end of the week, but I think that the acute grief phase – which is definitely the hardest part to get through – has already passed.
Right now, I’m mainly just anxious and hopeful for our appointment with the RE on Tuesday. My biggest worry is that he is going to make us wait several weeks to begin testing. I really just want to get moving with things and start our search for answers. We should have the results of the fetal chromosome analysis in a few weeks so I’d love to have had the testing done on us and have a gameplan by the time we get those results.
Maybe my expectations aren’t realistic, but I think that progress would really help my mental state. In the meantime, I’ve started to do tons of research on recurrent pregnancy loss (RPL) so that we can go into this appointment semi-educated. Unfortunately the main takeaway I’ve discovered is that there is very little research into RPL and that fertility clinics like the one we’ll be going to mostly focus on helping people get pregnant.
I’m not really sure what I want the doctor to say – but I think as long as he has some optimism and a plan I will be enthusiastic.