Dealing With The “Shoulda’s”

Today should have been the first day of my second trimester. I was so looking forward to this day. At a baby shower yesterday with close friends, I was going to share our exciting news. On our trip to Orlando that is coming up I had a few more friends that I was going to share the news with. I’d be at the 13 week point, and really able to start looking forward to the arrival of our healthy baby. Obviously none of that is happening. Instead, I’m waiting for my body to return to normal, and have a scheduled appointment this Wednesday to see if my cervix and uterus have healed. Overall, while my moods have gotten better, there is just this sadness in our household. With each friend that announces their pregnancy, it’s a little jab of pain that our baby should be born close to the same time, and is missing out on these friendships.

I am thankful for a great support system. As I’ve mentioned, my husband has been as good as can be and my close friends have been wonderful at listening and providing advice. I’m trying not to dwell too much, and instead focusing on hope for the future.



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